Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Last blogged @ 5:49 AM

Today finally got LC rank. Yesish!^^ I never stead with my WQ. Dont anyhow say can anot. I already dont love you anymore. (: , I finally see you. I love you. I will wait for you. Just you only . No other boys. I want school reopen now. I love you, (: You saw it now, I can forget you in one day . You happy now? Today's training not tired at all. Coz I saw (:
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Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Last blogged @ 4:37 AM

WAH!!! SIANX... Come back from NPCC at around 6.30pm. Damn tired sia. Keep doing drills then campcraft. Tomorrow still got test for drills and campcraft. And tomorrowww got parade... ==" No need sooooo fierce , righttt ? I also neverrr do anythinggg wronggg. Why I just cant stop myself from hugging the tigger whenever I reach home? The moment I see tigger I hug it. What does this mean ?! I am sure that , that was our last hug. :'( Whatever I do , it will always be wrong in your mind. Do I really look diffferent from my last time hair? My friends dont even recognise me. OMG! Why do I feel that tigger is my important thing now?! Why when my brother hug it , I would want it back immediately?! I know that , actually I dont even beloong to you anymoreee. And you dont even belong to me in the first place. You may be thinking that I stead with that STUPID TING WEN QUAN . But actuaaly I never. He anyhow . Ask me for patch then I say NO soooo many times . He still go tell ppl that I stead with him. I then dont want stead with him arhx. So disgusting. I think last time my eyes pa jiao. I loveeeee youuuuuu , tiggerrrr.

Monday, December 27, 2010
Last blogged @ 5:53 AM

You only trust your friends! :( How I hope that you can be standing outside my school gate tomorrow evening at 5pm. Haix... But I know it wont even happened. If it really happened , I must be dreaming. ya, dreaming. If I could get to see your face just for 1 min , all my tiredness will be gone. I still loveeee youuuuuuuuuu a lotttttttttttt , tigger!^^ Tomorrow having NPCC training from 8 am to 5 pm. Tigger, I dont blame u about the past. bye, i gtg

Sunday, December 26, 2010
Last blogged @ 7:38 AM

Have you ever think of how I feel?! Was that our last hug ? If it is I should hug tightly and wont let you go. After you walk back , my tears suddenly drop. WHY???!!! You say your friends know that I playing with your feelings. Do you also think that I play with your feelings? I dont have new stead. I know you would think that too. Coz you trust your friends more than me. Your friend say this then I say that , then you ask me to diam. Havve you ever let me explain ? Have you???!!! NO! You dont even let me explain. Everytime say I lie to you. I ask you if you say i lie to you abt the npcc dance thingy . Then do I still have to go to school for 3 days to teach the others???!!! I am already very tired but I still have to carry on. No one is by my side now. I love you.

Friday, December 24, 2010
Last blogged @ 10:50 PM

Do forget me , plz. Burn away all my letters that I write to you. BURN IT NOW. BURN BURN BURN. HAHA~ Going out sooonnn. YEAH! ^^ 31st maybe going serangoon NEX the PARTY WORLD KTV. YEAH!!!^^ You happy now? Later part , you will be more happy than now.

Last blogged @ 10:36 PM

Have I scold you before? Have I ask you to shut up before? You call me diam then diam lorhx. Btw,it is my mouth. I just dont wanna quarrel with you only. Dont love me le , say larhx . What for keep scolding me? Make me give up on you then you dont have to always scold. Yeah , Everything is my fault. BLAME ON ME NOW! BLAME BLAME BLAME.I know myself that I have done something wrong and I am trying to make it dont happened again. I know you cant see my effort. Everything takes TIME. Although TIME is money , but so what? I knew that after I break up , I dont even get a single chance to patch. NOT EVEN. Thanks to myself,man! Do I have any choice at that moment / sitution? What if I tell you that I still love you deeply? I know your answer . Your answer is : Diam luhs. Right? I cant blame anyone. Forget about me will make your li8fe better.

Labels: I still love you

Last blogged @ 6:07 AM

Why even I hug the tigger I could fall asleep so fast ???!!! WHY???!!! I hatex you!): Seriously, Thanks to me you nv go taiwan, at home rot and stay single. Yeah! It is all my fault. Today is Xmas! Tomorrow going to meet my mother old friend at SHENTON WAY. YEAH!!!^^ Going to exchange gift. Still wondering what to buy to exchange with my mother's friend the children. Haix... Choosing a gift is so difficult. Just now went to CP to buy red wine and log cake. My mother say to celebrate xmas.LOL!!! Waiting for my dad to come back then going to drink red wine. YES!^^ Dont drink too much if not later drunk. HAHA~ Now confirm a lot of ppl at outside celebrating at PUB all that . Eyer... MERRY XMAS to all my friends. I LOVE YOU!^^

Thursday, December 23, 2010
Last blogged @ 5:24 AM

Hate me all you wan. I guess all my wish is going to say bye to me. Trying to give up. Watching show. Nothing to post coz bad mood. tomorrow still need to go school. byebye.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Last blogged @ 5:02 AM

Tomorow going for NPCC dance practice. YES! HE will be free. I wont sms HIM. HE confirm damn freaking happy derhx. HAHA~ Giving up on someone is really very difficult , man! Watching BREAKOUT now. Yes arhx. I nv sms him for around 10 hours plus. HAHa. I still love you a lot!^^

Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Last blogged @ 6:18 AM

Haix... Cant I be a bit curious??? You sms me : den? U my who? Onli frien nia kpo so much for wad . This was what you sent to me . GOOD! You feel it now ? Saw it now? Now I am hurt. Continue it ... I encourage you... You really want me to treat you as friend? Are you sure? If you want it , I will let it be just like what you want. THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOWING HOW TO KNOW THE DIFFERNCE BETWEEN FRIEND AND BF. Thanks a lot. I finally know what you want now. I will make it happened. Dont worry. Whatever you want , I will do . I am such a fool. FOOL! I finally knows how to spell it . Trying to change everything to another way round but you rejected it. Is ok. Dont want it , never mind. Looking down the windows , the grass is sooo beautiful. Looking up the sky , maybe it is where I belong. yeah? How can I be a good gf?! I everything also dont know . You say that can build trust? hahah... It needs really a long long long time. WONDERFUL! I guess U dont need me anymore. SORRY , It is not guess , is exactly dont need me anymore. Just wishing you good luck in everything coming towards you. Yeah? Now lying on the bed, looking at the message that u sent just now and crying. WONDERFUL! This is the almost 7th times that I am crying for all this things. Thank you.

Labels: KNOWING THE DIFFERCE

Last blogged @ 5:23 AM

Every minute waiting for your sms . hiax... U have been working sooooo long hours, arent you tired? Last night , I dream that I met you outside then you pull me aside then you slap me very hard. Then I run to the toilet and cry. Will that really happened? I dont wish that . today morning went to Mrymount with my mother to interview. haix... i gtg. bye. i love you forever.

Monday, December 20, 2010
Last blogged @ 4:52 AM

Just come baxk from eating dinner at Hougang mall. I eat Black pepper chicken. YUMMY!!!^^ Today morning went to NUH to accompany my brother to see doctor. The MRT was so crowded... Come back home at around 2 plus... Everywhere I go there is our memories. Even I want to give up , it is very difficult already. 28,29 and 30 dec cant sms HIM from morning until 6 pm plus , HE confirm very happy derhx. So sianx... 23,24 and 27 dec going to teach the others in NPCC the dance . Confirm very difficult derhx. How I hope he can wait for me outside school... hiax... But I think HE needs to work. Today HE work whole day, confirm very tired derhx. haix... How I hope I can be there for him... HAIX... Maybe in the very first place , you dont belong to me le. Do you belong me ??? I cant forget you. I are always in my mind running around. When I close my eyes , lying on the bed , I can see you smiling at me. haix... I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER!^^

Labels: I love ZQ

Sunday, December 19, 2010
Last blogged @ 6:41 AM

Hello!^^ I am back from a family gathering. Eat too much le , now very very full. I cant ask from you too much now . haix... I feel bored without your messages. Although it was me who break with you first , i tell u , i regretted. EVERYTHING IS TOO LATE. :( I wont give up on you. Even u dont love me anymore , I wont give up. My heart is bleeding... It keep bleeding. It just cant stop anymore... Can u tell me whether do u still love me? I still havent explain to you about the NPCC dance yet. Can u listen ? LYY love LZQ forever and ever! Only you can help me . Help me stop my heart from bleeding. I love you forever. remember this
I miss your kiss,I miss your hug , I miss your sweet sweet messages , I miss you saying I LOVE YOU to me , I miss how u scold me when I did something wrong , I miss you , I love you!

Labels: LYY love LZQ

Saturday, December 18, 2010
Last blogged @ 11:20 PM

Everything started to change already:( why? Do u still love me ? I want to know the answer. so bored... I going to cut hair:) yeah! ^^1 new year,change 1 new hairstyle not bad arhx. haha~ i got to go. At night then post , one long long one >.< byebye.

Labels: i just wanna tell u that i still love you

Last blogged @ 12:52 AM

HI!(: Actually, I am not happy at all. One day without your sms/call, I am dying. How I hope u will call me automatically.): I feel that now I am alone being left in this world. Still remember the TIGGER u gave me? Until now , I am still hugging at to sleep. Whenever I am crying , I would hug it tightly in my arms. I could only cry silently,if not my parents would ask me a lot of questions. I dont know whether yesterday how did u think after reading my blog / u didnt even read it. But is okay. Actually I have a lot of things to say to you , but whenever I see u I dont dare to tell u what I wanna say. Should I just you go ? Last night , you told me that everything is TOO late already . I know everything is far too late. Everything wont be like how it is in the past anymore. Coz I think you have found .......... ya... If you have found it , I bless you. This fool is still waiting and loving you. Can u come back to my side? IT'S IMPOSSIBLE! ):

Labels: Should I give up on you

Friday, December 17, 2010
Last blogged @ 6:30 AM

I feel like calling u now!How??? Can I call you now? I miss your sweet sweet talk and messages. I want to see you now! Ever since i ask u for xxxxx xx , I thought i can forget u but actually i cant. I thought I could give up on u , but i still love you. I know that you dont love/like me anymore. But it is okay.): No one cares about me anymore. No one understand how i feel now. NO ONE NO ONE!!! I want to cry. U told me to be brave but i cant. I dont even know whether what i am doing is right or wrong. Sometimes I dont even know who am i. I have something to tell YOU : Boy,Good Job! I miss the past. YOU say that slowly, step by step. But I scared that if it takes too long , i already dont love you anymore or i might not be able to see u anymore. Can anyone understand how i feel now??? *CRYING* I just want u to remember that : there is a fool waiting for u over here.

Labels: boiboi, I still love you

Last blogged @ 4:23 AM

Yesterday , went out with kimberly and someone else. We went to Tampines mall to watch movie. The movie not bad. When watching the movie how i hope that i can have someone giving me some warmth but there was no one who can. Later went to find HIM at MRT station, pass HIM one letter and leave. Then kimberly friend left. Leave me and kimberly. So I decided to go to TOY R US to see soft toy. While I was seeing , HE come . HE ask why am I there. Why cant i be there? Later then we went outside to talk. After talking , when I was about to leave Tampines, I feel like crying out. Coz I dont know when are we going to meet again.
I actually still cant treat u as friend but since u say u want I treat u as friend then i will try my very best. I treat u as BF but u treat me as friend then it is okay. I now miss you. I sent u the message that i wont call u anymore , that time I was crying. I just cant stop crying. WHY???

Labels: I miss you

Sunday, December 5, 2010
Last blogged @ 6:39 AM

Come back from malaysia le . Saturday night , there was a blackout at around 2 .30 am . so dark until i fall down. I am scared of dark. I wait for the blackout to end until 3 .15am then sleep. Now very tired siol.But not as tired as HIM. HE have to work from 2pm to dont know what time .

Friday, December 3, 2010
Last blogged @ 8:26 AM

Recently, a lot of thinggs happened. i am already tired. Should I continue? hais... Let's not talk about this anymore. now is 12.28am, yet i havent sleep . Tomorrow going malaysia until sunday afternoon or evening then come back. Come back from malaysia confirm very tired de. Maybe reach home straight away sleep. haha~ Going to have class " outing " . actually should be class party as it is aa BBQ. haha~ Now in my room doing nothing except listening to korean music.:) Today went out with Kimberly and HIM! So fun... Actually we are wasting time . walk here and there only. hais... Recently , keep raining hor? Hate raining recently. haha ~ MISS SCHOOL AND FRIENDS. I WANT SCHOOL REOPEN NOW. I dont know why i want school reopen faster. School is bored but now i miss school . OMG!!! Dont know what am i thinking.

Labels: I miss you